after 2016's summer pt.2

gloom

if i were her husband id leave her

leave her heart broken as mine was ever

they werent wise to assume i hate who i am

i never had room to grow out of their little lamb

forever restricted, not yet forgiven still

ever since i broke from my pain and ran against their will

i found artificial love someplace loud and dark

hungry hands on my waist, i was a child  amid the monsters in my newfound park

and i woke from my daze the moment i found it was not my place

to play in smoke gas booze and strangers

or to sneak away without a trace

i dragged my feet back home, ironic i thought

to return to prison where i dreamt for escape and sought

so this is where i am,..a little wretch,...this is where it got me

i betrayed my mother and best friend so we could get off scott free

this is what hunger does. this is how pain becomes you

lived pain all your life. branded for the rest of it. if only you knew.

cant turn back, traitor is forever your name and mark

because of the pain you hid, then unleashed to play in the dark