I am going nowhere

I am being pulled so many different ways

It’s been a constant tug of war lately

Up or down
Left or right 

I don’t know

I have never been good at making decisions
I just feel as though whichever one I choose
Ends up being the wrong one

I don’t want to commit to the wrong direction
And have no way of coming back

But it is so different this time

My internal compass has pointed me to where I need to go
It’s right 
I’ve never been so sure

Or maybe I have
I wouldn’t know

Because self doubt is always surrounding me
And that’s what keeps me in the middle