i've loved, and i've learned

About five months ago

I couldn’t imagine life without you

I looked at you as the greatest thing to have happened to me

I looked at you through my young, innocent eyes

And i never would have thought

Even for a second

That you could bring any harm to me

You had me blinded

Totally oblivious to the fact that this love was not at all what it seemed

I have held on for so long

Hoping and wishing

That things would change

I thought that if I just kept trying

Just kept giving my all

That we would be okay

That you would always be by my side

That our love would grow stronger

I thought wrong

You see, in the past few weeks

I have allowed myself to realized some things

I have stopped defending you from my own thoughts

I have let my instincts take over

And they have told me all I need to know

You never loved me as you said you did

You may have loved me

But you never loved the parts of me that mattered

You did nothing but leave bruises

On my confidence

On my trust

On my heart

This love is toxic, causing nothing but damage

It feels so good to say

I don’t want it anymore

I do not need someone who doesn’t need me

I do not need someone who dismisses my feelings

I do not need someone who isn’t completely in love with every single part of my soul

I do not need someone who gives me half of the effort I give them

I do not need you

You are not my happiness as you once were

You are only someone who has taught me a few great lessons

I will never again allow myself to be taken advantage of

I will never again let down my walls for someone without knowing their intentions

I will never again listen to words I know are lies, and continue to stick around

Never again 

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[Scott Thompson]

My favorite part! Instincts are the key...

I do not need someone who doesn’t need me

I do not need someone who dismisses my feelings

I do not need someone who isn’t completely in love with every single part of my soul

I do not need someone who gives me half of the effort I give them