Release

She never knew it could hurt so much. She had always believed that the memories could sustain her, they could keep her alive. Oddly they were the one thing that was killing her. They were free to roam her mind, obliterating what ever thoughts they could infest. She had never believed, she had never even considered that memories of love could be so destructive.

 

Sarah just wanted it to stop. The memories were stopping her from living her life. The pain and longing they were provoking was becoming too much. It felt as if some unmeasurable force was just compressing her heart to the stage where it couldn’t beat anymore. It was so great that she felt that she couldn’t fight against it but she couldn’t live with it.

 

If only she could get rid of her memories, if only she could forget. Sarah couldn’t do that, she had promised him that she would never forget him. She had never wanted to but then she had never known the cost of that promise, the cost of the memories.

 

Maybe it would be better if she had never known love. If she had never known love then she wouldn’t be suffering from the pain of a broken heart. Those that say it is better to have loved and lost then never to have loved at all, obviously never suffered as badly as she was. Strangely she still had to agree, she would never wish that it had never happened. The love they had shared was such an amazing thing that her life without it would just be emotionless.

 

Why did it have to end? She could understand why he was taken away from her. Why was she left behind in a cruel world to suffer without him? Why was she trapped in this world without him? She felt as if she was dead without his love but that could never be, the dead cannot feel pain. Death is a release from pain.

 

Sarah dwelled on that thought. Death is a release. Could that possibly be her solution? Would death release her from her pain? Death would free her from the cruel world that trapped her like a tomb. A glance of hope flashed through her mind. They could be together. She could find him in the after life, then the longing would end and they could have eternity together.

 

All it would take is a little faith and some brief pain. Brief pain would be nothing compared to the strain her heart was constantly under. No matter what happens it would end, her heart would finally be at peace. She would be free.