Only One

Written in 2007

Why was I a fool? Why did I trust you? Why did I let you lull me into that false sense of security? Why did I believe you when you uttered those fatal words of "trust me"?

 

I have been here before, I have felt all this before. You turn my world upside-down; you use your words to twist my understanding. You seem so sure of yourself that you couldn't possibly be wrong. You make me question all I know. You make me question my body, my heart, my soul and my mind. You turn them all against each other. You know what you do, you boast about how well you have done so to others.

 

But alas, I was young and naive. I believed me to mean more to you then that. I believed I was more then a game, I believed I was a friend, a love, a confident. I believed I was wrong. All I was to you was another mind to twist and torture. Why was I a fool and allowed you to do so?

 

Well, I have learnt my lesson, I don't like having my mind messed with, I don't like my emotions and feelings being coins and currency for you to gamble with. Only one person is allowed to toy and twist my mind, only one person is allowed to gamble with the fragile emotions I own, only one person, only me.