When Life Changes

Just some insight

Sometimes I sit and wonder where did all the time go? Before I could even take a breath I turned 27 and it seems like one change after another is taking place. Friends I once loved are no longer there, people are moving away, getting married, having babies, moving on. Yes I think that what that is........ Moving on. Where did the time go and where did I leave off?
Often times I dream about the past thinking of what might have been, if I had stayed in Denver or if I had done this or acted this way. Would it have changed anything? Would my life have been better?
I have pondered this question many times and I have to say no. I believe that there is a path set for you and people come and go in and out of our lives to help us grow, to help us learn and they impact us in a way that was set out to happen.
Many times I wonder why me? But I am just being unrealistic. I have it good and have made some incredible changes in my life in the last six months.
I still wonder where the time has gone and often forget that nothing will ever stay the same no matter how hard you pray or hope for it.
Life changes and so do we. I am a completely different person than I was six months ago, there has been some hard lessons learned and I know I will only grow from here. I lost some good friends along the way, but have also made some great new ones.
I know six months may not sound like a lot but in my world everything has changed, from my job, to my schooling, to my living situation, my personal relationships to my integrity. I feel like I have gained my independence back, I have not felt that way in a long time.
Everything I am doing right now is for me........ It's all about change. Positive change.

Sorry for being so insightful on this post, but I felt the need to write.

xoxo

Reviews

[Celtic Cat]

No need to apologize, it's a wonderful message. I've been happy to be aware of the friends moving in and out because the lessons were learned, as it's much easier to accept without feeling abandoned. I used to say "you come in to this world alone, you die alone, and everything in between is transient". Change is a good thing, sometimes disguised as a bad thing, but in the end, as you say, it's all for a reason. I'm so happy to hear that you are in such a great place....you really deserve to be. You are truly a good person and friend, and the world is lucky to have you. Much love, my friend.

[angry_pandit]

cheers to that....

like a slithering snake,
we have to ride it's back.
sliding and surfing all the way,
figure a way for that !.
life's all about changes,
of smiles and miseries.
its all about a name,
practical or luxury.
de-code this sentence,
for, forever we are jailed.
life has its phase,
dark times and mysteries.
sometimes you look up and can smile,
others, "meet the supervisor", finally !!.

[Dezaraye]

It's amazing to me how much time flies and how much or how little can change in a period of time. It seems like when change happens, it happens fast and a lot at once. I guess not always, though ...

It seems like right now I'm watching everyone else around me moving on and upward and me still stuck here in my rut desperately trying to work my way through school and wishing that it were me who could be graduating and me who was getting married ... and me who's starting my family. I just hate watching everyone else move on but me. I feel like, sometimes, I'm the last one and the one left behind.

These wheels are turning and I'm getting nowhere ...