Hope

I looked deep into the mirror where deep brown eyes stared right back at me.

 If only they knew. 

If only they would realize that these brown eyes lose their spirit at night. 

If only they knew how many tears have leaked out of these brown eyes.

 If only…

You'd think they'd have become dull by now but I guess I've taught myself how to hide that too.

But you have to eventually wipe away the tears and continue because people might start to see. 

 You have to smile as if your life is perfect.

 Make sure no one can actually see right through those deep blue eyes.

and then night comes again and soon enough you are consumed by the tragic happenings of life.

 Its all a cycle if you think about it. 

A way of living life for most teenagers.

 You feel like no one loves you. 

Like you're all alone. 

Like no one can accept you the way you are.

I won't lie, I've  gone through it too.

 I remember teaching myself how to cover up the pain. 

I also remember going to sleep crying almost every night and trying to fight the monsters that were just waiting to shred the rest of my heart right out of my chest. 

I also remember how I used to beg for it all to be over.

I wished over and over that I'd finally get the courage to go completely through with death.

I guess the last few shreds of hope were still in me.

One day you will realize that there has always been someone there for you.

Whether you talk to them often or almost never, they will always be there for you.

You will stop wishing and doing gruesome things.

Soon enough you will be happy and actually mean it.

My name is Katerina and this is my story.

Reviews

[Alia ZJ.]

This is everyone's story. And here's the thing -you have captured the teenage regime with beauty. Infact, these lines are self-explanatory *
Its all a cycle if you think about it.
A way of living life for most teenagers.
You feel like no one loves you.
Like you're all alone.
Like no one can accept you the way you are.*
You did great, Katerina. I'm looking forward to read more of your writings. :)