my boy

i am so in love with a boy who isn't good for me

i’ve been screaming since the day i was born

i’ve been angry since i could walk

there’s poison on my breath, hounds behind my molars,

and yet,

with you

i can only ever seem to whisper

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i am suffocating.

i’m turning blue,

and you are the one killing me

but i’m still here

waiting for you

even as the world is fading around me

i don’t mind

because what really is a world without you?

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tomorrow is so far away

without you to pass the time with me