Internal Inferno

When the weight of rejection battles the weight of the secrets you keep. Either way you will hurt, how will you cope with it....

What if I told you that I liked you?

How would you react?

Would you look at me and laugh

Thinking that it can’t be a fact?

Would you say that you’re sorry

You don’t think of me that way?

Would you be disgusted?

Be irate and in dismay?

Would you tell me not to ever

Bring it up or talk to you again?

Would you scoff at my advance?

Tell me I’ll never be your man?

I’m scared of what you’d say

The fear is like a knife

The rejection is a drug

I would take to end my life

I want to make you happy

I want to be your smile

I long to be with you

Today, tomorrow, through every mile

I want to get to know you

Be the one you can lean on

When your nights are dark and gray

I would light your day and be your sun

What if somehow I was not alone?

What if I worked up the courage

And said the words I just can’t say

I found out we were on the same page?

What if all of a sudden our lives changed

And our hearts could beat as one

Could we grow a love that lasts

Until our very days are done?

I imagine us together

Walking through fields of green

A force that can’t be beat

Too big for the silver screen

But the answer will be no

To a question never asked

You’ll never know I like you

Against me the cards are stacked

I cannot find those words

My pride I cannot swallow

My heart continues to be hurting

And my tears, they will follow

I’ve backed myself into a corner

My own personal brand of hell

And it all started on that day

That for you I definitely fell