Where were you!

I still hold this anger inside me. To lose someone you love but never had the courage to express your feelings to...it hurts. I loved her then, I love her now. She'll always be with me.

Why?

Why should I believe?

Others tell me to have faith

To trust in you

But why?

So you can fail me again?

Where were you?

Not here

Not when I needed you

Not as my best friend

The girl I loved

My secret desire

And my world

Lay dying

Dying in a hospital

17 years old

And nobody

NOBODY

Can tell me there’s a reason

You have bigger plans

There’s no reason! 

No need for someone that young!

Someone with so much hope

So much promise

So much life ahead of her

No reason for you to take her!

I prayed

And prayed

And prayed

For what?

You stole her from me

From her family

From everyone who ever loved her

Why?

Yes, my lessons were learned

Was that your goal?

Teach me a lesson?

I got the point!

Yes, I learned

To tell them

Tell people how I feel

And they do know

But I learned another

Never

NEVER

Trust in you

You don’t answer prayers

I was faithful

Faithful to you

And you knocked me to my knees

You punished me

For what?

Some sick, demented humor?

You’re selfish!

What do you need

WHAT

From a beautiful 17 year old girl

With a full life ahead of her

Huh?

Tell me!

Exactly!

You’ve got nothing!

I’ve carried this with me

Long enough

And I’m tired

And I’m weakened

And no

I will not

Find my strength in you

You made me weak

You made me this way

But you know something?

I’m finding my strength

And not in you!

In two beautiful children

And a life I’ve made for myself

And I’ve made it by believing

Not in you!

In me!

So this is where we stand

I’m done with you

You did your damage

You took her from me

And I suffered

Everyone suffered

And I never got the chance

Not while she was alive

Never told her I loved her

Never held her close

Never kissed away her fears

Never kissed away her tears

Never held her tight

You took her from me!

Took her for yourself!

You wanted her

And you did what you had to do to get her

And you haven’t been forgiven

And I haven’t forgotten

I still live with the pain

And it’s you!

You self-righteous b*****d!

Who caused it

Where were you?

When I needed you!

Where were you?

When I spoke to you!

Nowhere

Nowhere to be found

I gave all of myself to you

And you turned your back

On everything

Everything that mattered to me

Yes, I’ve moved on

But I haven’t forgotten

Haven’t forgiven

And never will!