Writer's PainsA Story by KaliopeJust one of those days...God, I hate those days. I'm sure you've had them too, those monstrous piles of hours that you spend sitting in front of a white page. Well, sepia in my case if you really want to know. Okay, granted, you probably don't - but hey, you've learned something important about me today, isn't that great? I prefer sepia over white. Big shock, eh? Surely the mind blowing twist of the year. So while you procrastinate over meaningless details like
favorite background colors, the cursor blinks away the scarce time you have set
aside for the supposedly best occupation in the world: writing! You stare at
the accusing void and alternate between cursing your stupid, unfocused mind and
your poor imagination. Eventually your spouse comes home and casually remarks
that your hobby doesn't look nearly as much fun as you keep insisting it is.
You snap at him and use your feigned anger as an excuse to skip shared dinner.
Instead you lock yourself into your room, hoping that you've managed to lock your
creativity in with you. If only creativity had a neck, so you could tie a leash
around it… "Pleeease mum, can I keep him?" You think in a
whiny child's voice, "I promise I'll take Sparky out for a walk every day!
Don't you worry, I won't forget to feed him and take him to the vet." Jeez, just look at that scabby mutt at your feet. Maybe your flea-bitten creativity needs a vitamin shot or something. Anyway, no matter how much you rack your brain, the sepia
page - or white, or black, or neon pink… seriously, neon pink? Who the hell can
concentrate looking at that hideous abomination of color? Alright, alright,
it's your page. Use whatever color you prefer, just don't complain to me if it
eventually gives you eye cancer. But back to the point. Desperate to get something onto the page you line up your characters and have a heart to heart talk with them. Your cast turns out to be enthusiastic, they trust their author; heaven knows why, it's not like you've done them much justice so far. Nevertheless, you think: 'Action!' or simply: 'Go!' and they instantly slip into their designated roles, like the real pro's they are. You're just glad that someone in this tragicomedy turns out to be professional and eager to follow their example you start to write down what they're playing out for you in your mind. And boy, are they good! They act and emote their hearts out, they breeze across the sketchy scenery, bring the cardboard props, you haven't even bothered to paint yet, to full life with their interactions and their dialog is just divine. They make you weep and laugh, you shiver with fear when they face the monsters you throw at them and their bravery makes you wonder how these marvelous beings ever came into existence. You simply cannot comprehend how they could have possibly sprung from your boring little brain. Your fingers dance across the keyboard, nimbly tapping the
letters to the rhythm of your characters. Finally, the page is filling. You
feel the feverish excitement gripping you, drawing you into the story. You
become a part of your play, not as the omnipotent creator others might take you
for but as a conductor. Skillfully you direct the general theme, yet you are
wise enough to rely on your fictional friends to breathe harmonious life into
your symphony. Exhausted you slouch back into your chair. A satisfied grin
on your flushed face you replay the final chords of this masterpiece. So
beautiful! Wallowing in vast gratitude for life in general and imagination in particular you look at your players and find them awkwardly staring back at you. The supporting characters smile politely, shrug and turn away. The antagonist glares at you, threateningly clenching his fists, and even the two-dimensional cutouts find surprisingly nuanced ways to express their disappointment. Puzzled you turn to your protagonist, one of your best friends for many years. "What's the matter?" you ask him. He puffs out his cheeks and scratches his head. "It's just…well… is that really the best you can do?" Thunderstruck you scroll to the top of your page and start
reading. The scarlet blotches of entrancement on your cheeks turn a dark
crimson of embarrassment as you skim over your work. Instead of a spicy dish of
delicious writing you encounter a disgusting clot of ill-combined words.
Somehow you have managed to drown the crispy metaphors your characters have
bestowed on you in an oily sludge of saturated clichés, bound to give the
reader heartburn. The stilted dialog, bearing no resemblance to the clever
colloquies you witnessed, feels like stale leftovers from a first-grader's
homework. Oh my god, is it bad! You scrub your hands over your face and consider changing
your background color to distract yourself from the hideous writing. All of a
sudden neon pink doesn't sound like such a bad idea. The sound of soft scratching saves you from risking your eyesight. You turn your head and see Sparky scraping at the door. He whimpers and you start to feel sorry for him, almost as much as for yourself. With a sigh you untie the leash from your creativity and set him free. He instantly breaks away from your stuffy room; But then he stops and looks at you with his faithful doggy eyes, encouragingly wagging his tail. He waits for you. Reluctantly you get up and take him for a walk. What else can you do? It's just one of those days. © 2016 KaliopeAuthor's Note
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Added on August 3, 2015Last Updated on June 12, 2016 Tags: humor, writer's block, creativity AuthorKaliopeVienna, AustriaAboutHi, I'm a nerdy IT specialist in my forties, writing for fun and to keep my sanity. Feel free to friend me and to send me reading requests. I'll give you honest feedback and appreciate honesty in re.. more..Writing
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