I Never Knew

i'm sorry, rex, i never knew..

I never knew what lay beneath

The words that were stopped behind your teeth

The poisonous thoughts that ran unchecked

The fragile heart that was so easily wrecked

I never knew, love

You never said

You never told me

I would've begged

To know of your pain

To know of your doubts

To know your suffering

To hear your shouts

I never knew what you'd done to yourself

Slowly breaking, teasing your health

The blades that danced across your skin

Painting a canvas at your whim

I never knew, love

How much you hurt

How deep the pain ran

Your heart in the dirt

The furtive glances

The heavy gaze

Once of stone

Now a heart of clay

I never knew of the many shadows

They hung above you, behind your eyes

Twisted your thoughts and filled you with hate

Clogging your brain, muffling your cries

I never knew, love

Oh how I wish I were wrong

To be there with you

To help you be strong

To be your best friend

Your ear and your trust

Your shoulder to cry on

In our friendship a must

I never knew things that I should've known

The signs were all there, out in the open

I should've seen things, 

Maybe then I would know

That you weren't okay

That his un-love caused a blow

So deep and so painful

That you'd turn to the blade

Then put on a fake smile

As you went about your day

I'm sorry, love

I never knew

I never knew, love

I'm here for you

Author's Note

towards the end it got choppy and disjointed, i apologise for that

Reviews

[The Quill]

ma'am it is a wonderful piece of work...emotions are intense and can make the reader moved....amazing poem :)