All I Want is to Die!

It;s a bit scattered, but it's one of my deepest.

I think about suicide

Almost everyday

While others live in color

I merely live in gray

The smile that I wear

Isn't actually real

The happiness I show

Isn't how I really feel

Gun, bottle

Knife, blade

So many things

To take the pain away

I want to kill myself

But I'm not brave enough

Why is it so hard?

Why is life so rough?

You might be wondering

Why I'm always so upset

But telling people how I feel

I always regret

"Your life is fine!"

"Just don't be sad!"

You say all these things

Then wonder why I feel bad

Can I be fixed?

Probably not.

I'll just end up in hell

Where my corpse will rot

I'm not okay

Can't you see?

Just know when I die

It was all because of me.

I'm broken and bruised

All alone

I'm just an angel

That wants to go home

Reviews

[I Am Svetlana]

Such a powerful & stiking piece of work you've presented! I'm speechless...but I can understand the haunting thoughts, yet never having enough courage to go through with them. I have thoughts of suicide every now & again, but I always tell myself that the pain will eventually pass...no matter how long it stays for. I always feel I am not good enough for anyone; my family, my boyfriend, even myself. I have those days where it gets to be too much & I just want to end it...but then I think back & realize that I would lose everything I've worked for if I decided to go through with it. We all have a purpose & you are not alone with how you feel...

[~Kali~]

thank you for all the great reviews! And I like that you pointed out that you'd lose everything you've worked for, that's very true!

[Michael Leon Wilson]

Alone is the angel that has fallen,
She took a gamble and went all in
She took the stairs to heaven
She spoke to god and then
took a leap of faith
what a shame it led to suicide
a heap upon the asphalt no one can hide
dont deny you watched her do it, saw her pain inside
now you wipe your face and cover your eyes
and in your hands is a piece of her mind

[~Kali~]

that's beautiful...

[Michael Leon Wilson]

thats improv. check your inbox i sent you a link to what i can really do

[aLittlePain]

Kali, I felt this in my soul, my heart. Keep your expression always as truthful as this x

[~Kali~]

Thank you! It took awhile to write this one, glad it was worth it :)

[Natasha Sakurai]

i felt this poem from within. it tells the raw truth and doesn't skip out. very well done!

[~Kali~]

Thanks! And it is, I feel sad and lonely a lot of the time, even for no reason! :/ glad you liked it :D