Unexpected

“So you’re half straight then?”

Half straight.

A term I’ve always hated.

“No, it means I’m bisexual.”

“But that’s like the same thing right?”

Of all people to say that,

I never thought it would be you.

I also never thought it would hurt this bad.

You were the one who was supposed to accept me.

You were supposed to love me.

I know you didn’t mean to say it the way you did or at all.

But part of me thinks maybe you did.

Maybe that’s one thing you were afraid to tell me.

Maybe you let it slip in a way you thought I wouldn’t react to.

“I never meant to upset you.”

“I know you didn’t, it’s okay, I can get over it.”

“I mean I’d be hard pressed anyways to find a girl these days who isn’t.”

So you’re just dealing with you have?

Probably not what you meant to say. Again.

I’ll give you one last chance. Please. Take it.

“I really am sorry.”

“I know. It’s okay.”

I really did forgive you though.

You meant it when you apologized and I appreciate that.

So we laughed it off and put it behind us.

Before you “dug yourself another grave” as you called it.

“I admire how open you are about it actually.”

That’s the first smart thing you’ve said this entire time.

Hopefully, we don’t run into this problem again but if we do,

we might both handle it better next time, learning from now.

Reviews

[Max Hernz]

Dude, this was great! I've been out for a very long time. The saddest part about it is that I can't share the person that I love the most in this world with the 2 people who were supposed to accept me no matter what. It breaks my heart that I can't tell my folks how happy this girl makes me and how I'm gonna marry her some day. I know exactly how this feels. Love is love. It doesn't matter if it's with a guy or a girl. When love hits, it hits hard. Very good job!

[trying_to_write]

Thank you very much. It saddens me to hear about your parents but I understand the position you're in. Hopefully one day they will be able to accept the real you and who you love, all the best

[Askew]

You know, I can really relate to this. So many people are okay with homosexuality but are confused or weirded out by bisexuality. I know people who think you can only like one or the other, even though they know I've been with girls and guys.
This really hit me, because sometimes the people we trust and love the most are the ones who can hurt us the most, without even meaning to.

[trying_to_write]

I'm glad you were able to relate to my writing, makes me feel like I've done something right here. Even in this day and time I forget that there's still people out there who really don't agree with homosexuality. It's sometimes hard to believe.

[Einstein Noodle]

the conversational style is easy to follow ..you bring up a social issue that will always need illumination ... you could make your closing stronger if you expand it from personal to more universal ... some poetic imagery, alterations, personifications etc. all can bloom an expression ..but perhaps you have kept it straight forward for its own sake ... ;) i read your "About Me" and in answer to your insecurities about writing .... i think most people here will tell you the same thing ... your expressions are important and valid within themselves if you, the author, has "gotten it out" so to speak ... but if you learn more of the tools that poetry incorporates your confidence and satisfaction in expression will increase ... i am self taught but have taken a few free online classes that stretched and grew me ..but my most valuable learning has come from writing and read read reading others .. the journey of "finding your voice" can be long and tedious as one searches each avenue ... but when you do .. find that voice .. it will be well worth it ... no matter what subjective opinions of it may be ... welcome to the Cafe' ..there are also people here who are professors teaching poetry, English etc ... as well as those such as myself ... it makes for a wonderful colorful Cafe' in my opinion ... peace and joy!
E.

[trying_to_write]

Thank you so much for taking the time to read my work, I'll definitely think about how expand my ending. I really appreciate the advice:)

[Abhishek Izy]

Wow, not sure why but this lil bit reminded me of the opening conversation of Green Days' "Wake me up when September ends". Maybe the way you floated the conversation I assume. Liked it

[trying_to_write]

Thank you, I never really listened to Green Day but I didn't hate them, I'll have to give it a listen.

[Abhishek Izy]

Oh no no, not really. You don’t have to hear them. It’s just that the video has a conversation between a couple (before the song plays) and the conversation is real good. Your write just reminded me about the conversation which in subtle ways to say, is good. It’s real and I dig it

[trying_to_write]

Well it did come from a very real conversation, so there's really no lie in it which is why I like it so much.

[Abhishek Izy]

I can feel that indeed

[trying_to_write]

I can definitely feel the sense in which you can connect those two conversations, and thank you for reminding me about that song, I used to absolutely love it.

[Abhishek Izy]

Pleasure is all mine

[Planet x]

Good conversation , I like how you analyze what happened

[trying_to_write]

I'm glad you liked it. Thank you for reading.