Remembering

You know sometimes
When you squeeze your eyes
And your eyelids hit your cheeks
And they are hot?

You know sometimes
When you drank too much
And you gag on the tequila
And you will it to stop
And then you drink more?

You know sometimes
When you haven't had a cigarette before
And the world spins
And you laugh and smile
And the smokers think you're funny?

You know sometimes
When you're having sex
And you see your partner's eyes closed
And yours are open
And you feel guilty
But you like it?

Oh, nothing.
I'm about to die soon.
Just remembering.
Just remembering.