Something

I often write as an outlet- a way to understand my emotions. As I was evaluating my feelings in the 'Notes" section of my Macbook, I came up with this.

I've been trying to tell you how I feel 
Since that day we fell apart 
But my words are scattered all around 
Like the pieces of my heart 

Everywhere I spend my time 
Looks like the inside of my head 
Everywhere you are darling 
Is far too far from my bed 

Shelter my heart with anything  
Anything you have 
You can lie this time baby 
This time I won’t be mad  
  
‘Cause sometimes I’m not strong enough for truth 
These chains that bound my heart are getting loose 
I tried to put this love to rest 
But its something that i can’t contest 
All i want to be is strong enough for you 
  
But something tells me I’ve been getting weak 
Look in your eyes, suddenly i can’t speak 
I’ve always had the words to say 
But something happened on that day 
Something tells me I’ve been getting weak 
  
I tried to tell myself that i was strong 
I found it far too easy to move on 
Everywhere I don’t belong 
Couldn’t see just what was wrong 
Something told me I had gotten strong 
  
One word from you and I’m back on my knees 
Your presence spread back through me like disease 
Now you’re not here; can’t eat, can’t sleep 
Our history plays on repeat 
Something tells me I’ve been getting weak 
  
You said you wish i hadn’t walked away 
You told me that your love remained the same 
Tell me is this just a game? 
If you’re just gonna leave again, 
Why’d you bring me back here anyway? 
  
Something tells me I’m in way too deep 
Everything around lies in a heap 
I lie awake inside my bed 
Thinking 'bout your love instead 
Something tells me I’m in way too deep 
  
My mind is like a prison for my soul 
Lying in bed awake is getting old 
Playing your words on repeat 
Is every one full of deceit? 
Give me anything to make me whole 
  
Take me somewhere, anywhere, 
Where we’re not bound by time 
I'd spend eternity next to you 
And then I’d hit rewind 
  
But something tells me you have given up 
Drink away your sorrows from your cup 
Everything you are you hate 
Your soul is dying at this rate 
Something tells me you have given up 
  
Just don’t give up on me baby 
Give me some more time 
I'll show you that you’re beautiful 
And it will all be fine 
  
You could always count on me 
To steal you from your misery 
But something tells me we’ve run out of time.. 
  
Yeah, something tells me we have gotten weak... 

Reviews

[afternoonwater]

I greatly enjoyed your poem. It felt like a dance through the pain of the ebb and flow of fighting and letting go.

[A. Amos]

But something tells me you have given up
Drink away your sorrows from your cup
Everything you are you hate
Your soul is dying at this rate
Something tells me you have given up

very deep, sad but beautiful