Trigger

Impulsive

My heart felt heavy today. I place the rim of the cup to my lips, its hot mocha content steaming on my cold face. Tears threatened to escape from the cages of my eyes.

I did my usual tear-stopping routine, another liter of tears escaping to the bottle I had stored in my heart.

I was distressing. You who had wiped my tears away and gifted me with numerous smiles I could wear had cause the salty liquid trace back to my eyes and taken away all those presents you had given.

I placed my mug down and sigh. I have to go to school.

I arrived to the classroom, wearing a blank face. I cradled myself in my arms once I got myself into my seat. My heart was pacing again. It felt so heavy so full. I sat up and controlled my self.

I was at peace until a ball smacked me upside the head.

Normally I would be shouting a string of colorful language and throw the ball back with much resentment but no

I cried

Only partially because of the small amount of pain the ball had given me. I cried and released all the tears that have weighing me down.

So once everyone saw my pathetic state they started asking me

Why did I cry?

I couldn't answer them not completely.

I cried because of what happened 6 years ago.

I cried because of what happened last Saturday.

I cried because I'm losing friends day by day.

I cried for all the reasons why I should have cried before.

Author's Note

It's a brief explanation for some people who have seen this actually happening. Damn I really hate this but can't escape it.

Impulsive write

Reviews

[Pax]

a truthful write kabayan, Sometimes when we feel so heavy of the burdens of our past mistakes, regrets and loneliness...some little things can trigger it and the outburst of emotions flows fuildly...

sorry for what happened, i know life can be too heavy at times, sometimes letting it out and cry it out can ease the burden and lastly relief you for a time unless you make a move to do sometime about it to patch it up and this burdens will turn into a fully healed scar reminding you that you've learned...

You are strong kabayan, I know you could pass this test of life...
another challenge to stand up and live through it...
Great honest work!

100/100

[Katherine Enma Pineapple]

Thank you po :) I feel better, it's just that mostly I don't actually cry. Pagiging matigas din po kasi masyado hahaha

Salamat po sa support

[Rhianne Ney]

Yeah,, you cried and I was surprised pati pala ikaw umiiyak di lang halata ^-^

[Katherine Enma Pineapple]

hahha ndi naman bato puso ko d ba? ;D

[Pax]

bato ka ba...di nman... tao ka..hehehe....seem to be you two are great friends... keep up the bond it will come a long way....

[Rhianne Ney]

Thanks kuya pax;D

[Katherine Enma Pineapple]

thank you rin kuya ;D hahaha pusong bato raw hahaha naalala niyo po ba ung kantang iyon

[Pax]

oo nga noh... :D... very much welcome to both

[Rhianne Ney]

:D

[de_maruf]

nice pic

[Katherine Enma Pineapple]

thank you :)

[emmy bon]

nice......

[Katherine Enma Pineapple]

thanks