Identity Crisis

An inner debate with myself

Days passed like lightning and thunder

One night it was summer next it’s winter

The simple taste of love I constantly wonder

Am I thinking like an average teenager?

 

What’s so wrong of thinking normally?

Acting like the standards of common actuality

I look at the mirror, that girl staring back at me;

Was somebody different, what used to be reality.

 

“Do you enjoy the world out there so real?

Are you savouring the tangible feel?

Loving the dream breaking savvy?

Revelling in your child self’s misery?

 

“Never would she have dreamed of being you

Not liking your style and personality too

That lacklustre kind of woman you grew into

Dreariness you possess is all so new!”

 

I heaved and gave my reply without a blink

The real world isn’t as bad as you think

It’s not full of gaudiness and stink

Just a tad bit there to keep things in sync

 

It’s only full of wrecks and mazes

But I think what really and truly amazes

Beyond all those is the greenest of grasses

Great people amongst all the masses

 

All you need is a bit of you everywhere

Paint your colours here and there

Everyone didn’t forget the people they were

They just built the courage to dare

 

To dare to change for all the better

The girl gives me the coldest of glowers

“What do you mean better, worse rather

Brain washed to the core more over!

 

“All you have said is half the truth older me

Half of truth is a lie if you open your eyes and see.”

I just stare at her, smiling happily and lovingly

And she looks back at me, scorning hatefully

 

Author's Note

I had an inner debate with my self the other day. I just woke up and saw myself, reading and loving books I swore I never would have read as a child. I had a debate with my self and I guess I will never know who won but all I know is we all have our opinions... care to share them? :D

Reviews

[Rhianne Ney]

“All you have said is half the truth older me

Half of truth is a lie if you open your eyes and see.”

I just stare at her, smiling happily and lovingly

And she looks back at me, scorning hatefully

Maraming nakakaranas niyan haha ang cute nito

[Katherine Enma Pineapple]

Pati na rin tayo hahaha thanks

[Rhianne Ney]

OO nga naman

[de_maruf]

fine

[Katherine Enma Pineapple]

Thanks

[Lehlohonolo Lichaba]

this is by far my favourite from the first line i was hooked good catch

[Katherine Enma Pineapple]

Thank you ^_^

[Rorenzu]

This is funny. Come to think of it, you're actually debating with yourself huh? Honestly, internalizing yourself is the best way to strengthen who you really are.

[Katherine Enma Pineapple]

I am hahaha thank you :))

[Pax]

the jurors in our thoughts they have this constant argument...the winner will be a mystery to solve, i can only say let the imagination flow, glide to the winds of your thoughts...i guess its just a matter of self understanding and a deep connection to your soulful self...

[Katherine Enma Pineapple]

Thank You for sharing and I most certainly agree perhaps I was just panicking because of how greatly I changed

[Pax]

remember my poem ever step...
In times I think I've changed so much that I can't even recognize myself!
So much had change in my life that it’s much harder to look back.
Then I’ll just accept and move forward.
I’ll surely stumble along the way, but
I know it's worth every step my friend...

[Katherine Enma Pineapple]

aww you know how much I love you friend and your works XD hahaha Change really surprises us at the very last doesn't it?

[Pax]

yes... ganun talaga ang buhay diba...
kamusta?

[Katherine Enma Pineapple]

OK naman kuya tapos na akong magluto ng spaghetti ;D kayo po kamusta

[Pax]

ok lng ito... nasa work... merry christmas to you dear friend...
sarap naman yung niluto mo... namis ko tuloy ang pinas...
malamig kasi pasko dito...:)

[Katherine Enma Pineapple]

ay sana ok ka lang po ah, merry christmas sana maganda yang pasko niyo c: haha lutuan kita? ;D dbali kuya pinas also misses you in a way.... malamig din dito sa baguio haha :)

[Pax]

Salamat sgi ba pag luto mo ako...send mo via lbc...lol..

[Katherine Enma Pineapple]

cge b po .... tignan nyo bka na sa pintuan niyo na ;D haha

[Pax]

Hahaha...door to door pa.... Ayan baka masanay ako nyan...;)

[Katherine Enma Pineapple]

hahaha sadyang sosyal na ang panahon ngayon XD hahaha baka gusto niyo po rin ng sinigang? P:

[Pax]

lol... iba na talaga yung panahon ngayon... ang bilis...lol.. kakatapos ko lng sa spag mo... gusto ku naman ng dessert.. pasko na dyan... dito mamaya pa... have a great christmas dyan sa atin...kabayan

[Katherine Enma Pineapple]

a merry christmas nga pala po :) -hugs- lol dbali kuya may crema de fruta kami dito ;D hahaha pati rin po diyan sa inyo 3 oras na lang siguro

[Pax]

oo oras nlng... at matutulog nlng ako...lol...
ang sarap pa naman nya....nag lalaway na ako....ahhh!!
lol...
salamat kabayan feel na feel ko parin yung christmas dyan sa pinas...
see u ulit...

[Katherine Enma Pineapple]

cge kuya pwede ka naman rin magpahinga lol XD cge lang

haha dapat nandiyan na ang lbc ah ;P lol

you're welcome and always a pleasure kuya c: merry christmas haha

ay naku nagpapatugtog na sila ng 80s songs XD lasing na mga kamag-anak ko hahaha

kaw ngay kuya kamusta xmas mo diyan?

[Pax]

ang christmas medyo malungkot pero ok lang...

[Katherine Enma Pineapple]

D: kelangan niyo ng hug kuya?

[Pax]

a big hug kung pwede :(
though kaya naman...
pinoy tayo eh...
every Sacrifice is worth for our family diba...
kaya... kaya natin to.. ;)
pinoy tayo eh..
positive palagi despite sa hirap ng buhay...

[Katherine Enma Pineapple]

sorry virtual hug lang mabigay ko sayo :) -huggggggggggssssssssssssssssss-- ok lang iyan kuya, makakayanan mo iyan :) Tiwala lang tapos nandiyan naman c Lord, pagdasal din kita kuya c: