To Die With DignityA Poem by Falling StarsThis was written for my brother, who died of AIDS. I am so glad I was able to be with him in his final moments. I cannot believe that there could be a god who would hate anyone, or punish anyone.
My lungs on fire, my vision in flames
Every breath like the air's filled with smoke Night's black hands grasp me, dragging me down I can feel my strength weaning and dying And my chest just grows tighter and tighter Like the flames of hell encircle me If I could I would scream and beg to end it all But my dying words won't come to fruition I am scared, so very scared, as I silently weep I don't want to die, nor to be in pain As black spots dance in front of me and threaten To cut off the light to which I cling like a moth What have I done in my short life? A life, people tell me, that has been led in sin I followed my heart for true love, though it pained me A love that no one else could see Will He be angry? For my blinded desertion? For it is He who made me this way Will I burn in Hell for the love I did follow For the truth He ingrained in my heart? And the tears that burst forth from my eyes And the pain that drags me to my knees Is this my penance for passion? For love? What unjust god inflicts this on me? And in darkness, I fumble, for the last dying light A hand that is held out to me Ungrudging, and loving, whose ennoble touch Allows me to die with dignity
© 2014 Falling Stars |
Stats
170 Views
Added on August 28, 2014 Last Updated on August 28, 2014 Tags: AIDS, Personal Philosophy, Dying, Gay Rights AuthorFalling StarsLondon, United KingdomAboutTo others, I am a student, a daughter, a friend, and a lover. To myself, I am a poet. And I am the only person I write for. more..Writing
|