Bipolar

I see her when I come alive in the morning every day.

I see you after I have never slept many days as well.

 

Sometimes she moves very fast and has excessive amounts to say.

Sometimes you seem drained, no energy to expel.

 

Many times she is locked inside her own mind.

Many times you don't realize thoughts floating in my head.

 

Other times she seems to remain steps behind.

Other times you jest and pick apart the words I have said.

 

She's never the same person that I first met.

Would you tell him the pills can only do so much?

 

She always says words that she will regret.

Tell him I'm not using this disease as a crutch.

 

Tell her there's not much more I can take.

 

Why don't you tell me yourself?

 

When I see you change I feel my heart ache.

 

Can't you just see her for herself?

Reviews

[Kitty]

Jenn,
5 years ago I was diagnosed with Bipolar disorder... and God granted me healing. It was a very hard time for me prior to the diagnosis, I didnt understand my ups and downs.. so I certainly understand this piece very well..
The highs are wonderful(including the shopping sprees)
but the Lows took me to cold floors, late at night, with pills in my stomach...

You captured this disease of the mind, and soul very well..

God bless,
Melba

[Wolfwind Words]

Great write detailing the inner twirlings of a bi-polar mind. You have captured the ups and downs and the problems that one faces with it. Great Write! :)

[thecoolone52]

i really liked that.... way to let your guard down.... its a unique piece because your taking to your self in a way but talking to someone else 2 and i think thats a unqiue voice you use... to try and help yourself out and get people to accpet you for who you are... nice work

[Andrea A. Wentz]

Ouh, so true. I'm borderline bipolar myself, as in as long as I sleep every night for at least 6 hours I won't have extreem highs and lows. Medication may help with my overall mild mood swings, but awareness and acceptance has helped alot!

You wrote so well about the fluctuations, the confusion about who you are at any given moment, the fear that people think you're using it as an excuse, and the hopeless feeling that comes with realizing that you're different and some may never be able to accept you as you. Beautiful flow and connection of thoughts. Not only is the piece really good, the message, the awareness of what people who are bipolar go through, is a precious gift to any and all who deal with it themselves or as a friend, lover, or family.

[Yvonne Heidt]

Geez. It seems that we live parallel lives! This is excellent because it's so different from anything that I have read.

Sometimes she moves very fast and has excessive amounts to say.
Sometimes you seem drained, no energy to expel...

Brilliant description.

[Tim McGovern]

I like how you use different people as if neither one is you.
I suffered depression for a lot of years, I know how sometimes it feels like you are locked inside something that does and says things you can't help.
Other times it simply feels like you have nothing at all to say to anyone.
This poem captures many of those feelings and fears very well.
Writing always helped me get through rough patches, I'm glad you write and that it's a creative way to get feelings out.
Keep writing and good luck

Namaste'
Tim

[Jason]

Interesting, and-good! I like the way the poem starts outs as two lines, then the last few are single...to me it gives a sense that people see the bipolar as two, when in reality, you would like to be seen as one...very clever, very good!

[THERISA]

While, i don't know the trails of dealing with bipolar, i am all to familar with severe depression. As it grips one's life. Spinning downwards into dark and suicidal thoughts. Accompanied by anxiety and panic attacks. Taking meds that haven't been tested beyond a couple of years, told don't worry, these will help you. Never realing the doctors are practising alchemy upon your health. Thank you showing me, some of the problems that a person with bipolar has to endure with this very personal poem.

Therisa

[Kelley T]

Though, not too long ago, I befriended a woman who was bipolar I could never quite understand where she was coming from... Come to think, I don't know if I *ever* truly did! This poem however, has allowed me to see some of the inner turmoil she was experiencing and, for that, I thank you.

[Chad Wesley Allbrett]

The way that you divided this poem and constructed it is very skilled! You really nailed something that a lot of us deal with in an original way.

[James R. Lawrence]

Clever structure, cool way to approach this universal theme!