My All

This is a poem that was written during the time of my drug abuse. It shows the grief that I feel for hurting the one I love the most.

MY ALL

Inner battles restraining feelings held within.

Recurring thoughts of memories crawling in my skin.

Looking through closed shades but seeing so much.

Feeling emotions only Jesus can truly touch.

Wanting to close off this horrible world of pain and illusion.

Reasoning leads me to my own inner conclusion.

Communication has become obsolete in this life I live.

Reaching within and knowing I gave all I had to give.

 

Reviews

[Baby Boy]

Wow! This is very very deep and I can feel the pain and emotions coming from your words! Very descriptive write and it catches the reader's ear and touches the reader's heart! Great job gurl! One luv!



-JC-

[Barbara Walker]

Your writing touches me on many different levels. I always know it is going to be something I appreciate you sharing with me.

[Kitty]

..Been here.

"Feeling emotions only Jesus can touch" --emotions even we cant touch or describe..I thank Him for being there for us..

I think your emotions are a gift..no matter how strong they are..you have found a way to control them Jenn.. and they are all on this website. Thanks for sharing.
Write on,
Melba

[Emotional Orphan]

Geez Jenn, Either you stole my words, were spying on me when it happened, or something. I could have written it myself. Perfectly described, the feeling is there and I relived it when I read it. Thanks for sharing it...and for doing the hard work for me !!!!
Jack

[Kari]

good

[Jason]

Yep, i feel and hear this one...that crawling of the skin, the blinds...and definitely closing out the world. I had a poem called "Shut out the outside world" when i was using...I have to find it...anyway, thanks for posting some of your past pain.

[Kena Dawn Augustine]

I understand where you are coming from on this one. I have never been into drugs, but i have turned towards other thing, like my obsession etc. and that's how i felt when i was in the wrong relationship. it felt like this horrible world of pain and illusion. good job!

[Poetry dances]

full of sadness- flows beautifully with the rhyming you adopted-
powerful reminder of how hard it can be to be who we are sometimes-
regards

[Mr. Lopez]

Short , simple, and very effective. Bravo........again.

[Celtic Cat]

it seems to end in such despair..but it's the first time I really felt it in the poem. The first lines capture very distinctly what happens when we quit the chemicals long enough for our brain to stop working...and the agonizing realization we can't shut it off anymore..in the ways we used to. I remember being in this place and being grateful for the medium of writing to help empty those thoughts.
I like the peeking through shades line...definitely takes me back to not so pleasant days... paranoia is not something I miss at all!!!
yeah...those last two stanzas bring in the desperation. Another awesome write!!

[A.r. Bazian]

... amazing rhyme scheme!
the imagery is.. hot! so intense and vivid!
acceptance is reasonable outcome... accept... to accept something is only way you can defeat it!
and just let go of everything but your own truth!

i like the poem very much!
thank you for sharing it!