would You be pleased...

What would God say to me if i was standing in front of Him....i wonder if He would be pleased.  i  wonder...would He say, "Well done...," or would He say, "You did fine...that is good enough for Me,..come in.  Come to me, My child,...You are welcomed in My house." would He recognize who i am today, would He reject me.  i know my God can not be that way, He made me, why would He destroy me..i do not believe in "hell.." i'm not a saint, and i know that You very well know that already. Nor am i one to think that the only place You are is in a church-house and that the only time i can praise You or mention Your name is on Sunday mornings in best dress. i feel Your presence within my person. i feel You all the time, deep down in my soul, everyday. i can walk outside, and there You are. The wind, the trees, the wet to the rain;thats You.  i know exactly "where" You are..because You're everywhere...

Sometimes, i cry tears of joy when i know it is You surrounding me. Filling my life with the things that i need.  Placing the people in my path which i need. Proctecting me.

When my friends speak of You-euphoria washes over my body as if i were outside in Your rain without an umbrella.  A few of my friends were speaking of you today;of how they try and pray to You everyday, but sometimes forget.  How life goes so fast and they try to do too much on our own;they just try to "wing their whole day" without speaking with You first. i really hope that You won't forget us when You get too busy.  Do You get too busy...?, there's allot of us on the "family tree" down here. well, i am sure Your rest is only a  pause to us, and besides, You already know everything that's going to happen.

i still refuse to apologize for depending on You. Sometimes, people ask me why i walk so lightly at times and seem so free;it's because i depend on You and Your power...i try my best to rely on You each day as it comes....

 

-one of Your children,

Shean...

Author's Note

[for those of you who have previously reviewed, if you are revisiting, this write was formerly titled "would He be pleased...featuring "good night mr. officer"..now that i am editing and working on my bio/memoir, there have been some changes made.."good night mr. officer is still around as well..] thanks for coming by my side of the Café