"what's one to do..."

when you love....you often times will be a fool.....

what's one to do,when you love her so deep, you need her so bad.

what's one to do when the trust is lost, but without her you feel lost.

you wanna' feel her next to you in bed,

you wanna hold her tight like the sun will refuse to come up tomorrow

what's one to do, when you need her kiss, but her lips are no where near.

 how do you say you love her so, you miss her so....

but you feel like you'll be another fool... what's one to do...

 

 

 

i love you....i really do...but i'm so incredibly afraid to let go. when i thought you were gone into the here-after...that was complete;there was nothing i could do. now that you're still here....it freaks me out to think motives were set to hurt my heart.  my world was turned upside down...i pray for the one who needs love so desperately that they were forced to create horrendous lies. you've told me love me, again....my heart sure wants to believe you-my senses of fight or flight present themselves.  i just can't take another heartbreak;i feel extremely damaged besides all my levels of 'brokenness'....i don't think i will ever be the same...i don't think that there is anything you can do to prove that "you'll never hurt me" or that the chance will ever arrive....i've heard "those words" before ver-ba-tim.....you tell me things can be different....that trust can be restored....and i'm not so sure about that....the only thing i am sure about is, is that i don't know what i am to do..

Author's Note

what do you feel...where does this write 'take' your heart........