"waking up to live"

Story in poem "form"

wakin' up in different places

seeing unfamiliar faces..
drinkin' poisonous amounts of libations and living without precautions
"nah," i gave that up a while ago...

causing all kind of havoc..

sleepin' on the edge of subliminal and unsubliminal ravings and cravings for more of the same...
"aaah," i can do without all of that now..i'm not that woman anymore,

raising hell and causing more chaos before and after the ring for "last call"
but now time calls for a new life, and measurement on a different plane..
because...i don't have to be that woman any longer, i've been shown something better..

..................................

..i don't recall even how..
i thought i could last that long,
tryna be someone and something i really wasn't..
tryna prove something that didn't even need to be proven..
tryna show myself and e'rybody else that i could
be this and i could be that, and  that i could do that,
saying all cocky-like, "yeah, i can do that, and i prolly already done it"

..the thought of it today does however make me grateful that i went where i did to get where i am today...
for some it's a road never taken.
for some who have taken it, have veered off, and can't get back on solid pavement..
it does sometimes seem like the road less traveled..
but at those precious times throughout, here and there, in very special places;
i can look to my left and i can look to my right..
in front of me and behind me....

i can see precious and rebuilt souls...
who take this journey..

and depend on this journey.
 

Reviews

[justjenn_2u]

A journey that I needed to remind myself of. The fear of waking up alone around strangers, a feeling inexplainable. You allow the reader to know of how inhibitions fall to the way side, thus, leaving deep inner scars. I have to give respect where respect is deserved, you turn that old life away - wanting to be someone so much better. More power to you!!! How awesome! I admire how you can look back and say how did I become this? Power in your words! Wisdom speaks in these words - you are able to see that without this trial, you wouldn't be where you are today. Grateful, am I, to also be able to become strong enough to fight this demon. To rebuke him! This poem is packed with wisdom with such great detail.

[Yvonne Heidt]

This is amazing. Very profound and packed with wisdom from someone who has been there. As an addict in recovery - I applaud you. Loudly!

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