Why did I miss you

No words I write can match the pain of knowing that someone you spent hours missing never cared about you

Have you ever missed someone so much

That you both cry and laugh thinking of them

Have you ever just sat down and watch the world go by

But sat down sat because they can’t watch with you

Big brown boxes 

Filled with memories that used to be

I lost 5 friends

That day

They just lost one

Have you ever missed someone

That you try so desperately to keep them with you

Missed someone so much that when you

Hear a song

Watch a movie

Read a book

The memories just come back

How you feel like you can never forget them

Even tho

They forgot you

It feels like an eternity has gone by 

Since I said goodbye

In reality it’s just been two years

The joy I had knowing that I would see them tomorrow 

Was the happiest I have ever felt

Happier than child getting ice cream on a hot day

Tomorrow came

Right on time

As I saw them on stage

It took every bit of self control 

To not run up and hug them

So I waited

Waited

And 

Waited

After the play, they came out. 

I ran to them

Only being able to say hi

One walked past me

Not even knowing I was there

3 didn’t even care

One was just to wrapped up in herself

To even notice I was there.

They never cared

My heart shattered 

Countless 

Days and nights 

Longing to just talk to them again

Many painful pages turned on my old yearbook

All the pain

All the energy 

WASTED

None of that mattered to them

They moved on

When I moved away

And didn’t even remember my name

All I have now is the bitterness taste

My tears ricochet

For I would cry no more

Why care for them

When they don’t for you

They didn’t care for me

Maybe they never did

So I’m left with the question

Why did I miss you?

Stay in touch they say

How?

Were so far away

THOUSANDS of unread text

THOUSANDS of miss calls

Because they didn’t care

Now they are just somebody 

That I used to know

They chanced to people I know

To people I don’t

That hurts the most.

I forget why I miss you

But I won't shed another tear

For people who don’t care

I hope your happy

Because I won’t ask anymore

Skipt the Lies 

Of I’m fine

I’m done with one way relationships

I remember why I missed you

But I won’t ever

Again. 

Author's Note

No words I write can match the pain of knowing that someone you spent hours missing never cared about you