Meteor

There is one man who has lied to me, ignored me, played games, and been all but faithful to me.  This one man has broken my heart more times than I can count. He’s hurt my trust, my pride, and my reputation- call it disrupting the peace.

Most tears that I’ve cried over these 4 years trace back to him. He’s been earth- shattering to say the least.

But he’s a meteor which sets my heart afire. Our relationship is lava spanning out over its course- but with every disaster beauty and healing are birthed thereafter.

I have no reason to trust him with my heart, mind, body, or soul but I give it all to him anyway without second glance.  I simply can’t imagine doing otherwise.

I love him.

And I can less than coherently tell you why.

Maybe it starts in his eyes and moves outward. 

Maybe he has beautiful words and fluent actions- a kind heart and wise mind. 

I guess that’s what does it. He captivates me and strips the true meaning of love and infatuation right from me.

We were both so young- knew a good thing when we saw it, then we ruined it. Over and over again.

I was selfish, he was lying.