A Vague Memory

A day or moment of reflection on love and what to do.

I sit alone, with
a vague memory
what could have been
do you still care for thee?

Is love supposed to hurt
must I feel this stabbing
directing at my heart
causing my eyes to water?

Watery tears
of sadness and gloom
Oh dear God,
what should I do?

I thought he was mine
now I don't know
I feel in the pit of my stomach
that he must go

So here I sit alone
knowing deep down
what I must do
In time, in due time

but just not yet!

Reviews

[emmah]

ah!! what a captivating and soulful write this is - so certain in it's tentativeness; a verse that brings out the fragility of our hearts so beautifully. it brings to the fore, in no uncertain terms, the presence of an inner voice - a voice that we all hear, a voice that is ever-present, a voice that is forever true, a voice that is honest and certain; an instinct that never fails to warn us, an instinct that is protective of us - "i feel in the pit of my stomach - that he must go". the narrator's certainty in the accuracy of this predicament is unquestionable. as a reader, i not only thought about the all the times when my instinct tried to guard me - not only from a person, but also from a choice, from a situation, from a decision that i knew was not right.
the contrast of this certainty is beautifully juxtaposed against another natural human instinct - one that coaxes us to defer pain. often, to avoid the harsh decisions that we know we must take, the consequences of tough choices that we have already made or the heartbreaking admission that we must make to ourselves and others - we procrastinate absolution. we know that the pain is inevitable - and yet, we blind ourselves so that we can linger just a little longer in the numb grays between black and white. it's a helpless feeling - one of impending pain - when one is only counting down to a moment when sufficient courage will empower us to pronounce with surity the truth we have known all along. "knowing deep down - what I must do - in time, in due time - but not just yet!" - brutally honest final lines - exposing the raw vulnerability behind the cutting certainty of the narrator.
moving and honest - lovely verse!

[Crowley]

You are making me sad sistah! this was a very good expression of some pretty crappy feelings. Good write girl, big hug in your general direction.

[Chloe..Across the Unive..]

hello .. i like the poem it is so so sad tho .. yet the last line gives pause for perhaps a happier ending .. well written and emotional.

Peace
Chloe

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

It is something that an emotion such as love that can make us feel on top of the world can also make us want to be six feet under... sad but hard hitting emotions here in this great flowing piece.

[Captain Blackheart (The..]

A memory can cause so much pain or so much pleasure. It sad when things don't work out for whatever reason, but letting go is sometime the hardest thing to do. A great poem, that is very deep.