MistreatmentA Poem by Junebugwritten about someone who didn't treat me rightYou wonder why I can’t look you in the eyes When you tell me you love me. Why I choke when I say “I love you” back. I wonder why I fall for every boy I meet Regardless of how he treats me. Why I find addictions so beautiful Every bad habit so romantic. I fell in love With my state of calamity. But I know why. Every time you screamed Calling out My imperfections My mistakes My shortcomings. Every time You hissed your lies at me “You’re not good enough” “You’ll never amount to anything” “Your character is what will hold you back the most.” You convinced me. You pounded these statements Into me So far That they became truths. I didn’t even realize. Much like a horror movie The audience sees the killer Creeping up But the main character Is oblivious. These truths became definitions These definitions became the replies to my questions Who am I? What am I capable of? Nothing became the answer. You wonder why When you buy me gifts Or sing my praises I hit you with angry words. This affection is A slap in my face Makes a joke of all my issues Invalidates all my insecurities Gives me no proof of your evil. You act so playful Around everybody. You make me believe In you again. You become the Santa and Tooth Fairy Of all my broken dreams And then you crash through All over again Shattering my beliefs And reminding me Of why I don’t try and make believe any more. © 2016 JunebugAuthor's Note
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