counting sheep

A Story by julius9609

some s**t thats going on in my life right now sadly

i havent slept at all these past three days, my girlfriend has been ignoring me. i dont know if its just me or im the one pushing her away, then again it could be both. i text her she never texts back, she texts me i never text back. one of my bestfriends told me a guy asked her if we were still together she replied with " i dont know what we are anymore". he also told me she has been thinking of talking to another guy. his name is scott. i tried my best to make her happy but you know sometimes all we have to give just isnt enough. i called her and told her it was okay for her to move on that i know i what i had must be nothing compared to what he could give her. she only laughed and said i dont want to be with him. but its not every day you can see your girlfriend flirting with someone over facebook and not want to tell them its over. i havent mustered up the courage to do so yet. im just waiting for her to call it off so i can just move on with my life. i love her with all my heart but i need to let her go, i cant fight for her like i used to anymore. my passion for her is far beyond what i can comprehend at the moment. im just waiting for it to actually click that im going to lose my fiance to some guy. i just wanted someone crazy enough to tell me they would love me till we were buried. but i guess she isnt the one huh.

by: julius conteras