How to Say Goodbye...

A Story by joe

I walk these city streets for what maybe a long and bittersweet see you later, yet I am encouraged to smile and still hold a jump in my step. However I can’t but hold my emotions as they urge and struggle to flow right out of me. I lead to the place, the haven where I have spent hours on end just to look at her; receive a brief but lasting recognition. Till this day when it is too late to give into my emotions and reveal every thought I have ever held for her at a time way past its opportunity I still find myself giving reason and coming up with excuses to visit. Even if it be for just a minute just to see her. I hold this long introduction of hello. I now carry the yearning of an elongated period awaited. Only I know of these secrets. It might as well be farewell, but I still hold a chance of hope in my distorted world. There she is right in front of me a few steps to a new world and yet I hesitate and ponder. Must I fault in writing this now to go and give it a shot. Forget about my ego, but how can I, if I leave then this urge to write will go and I will stop not knowing when I can give my hand at this craft again. For is my love this strong? I sit here with a sadly stare not knowing how to keep this ongoing good to know you and how to say goodbye for a short breath of a moment before my visit expires in social acceptance for its allotted time frame to sit and write.

Is this what I call another night in the distill paradise I call a place to lay my head. Now I know I’ve been coming here for several months, you know I’m knew. How many times have I said hello, and how many times have I said goodbye, and how much of the in between have we had? I know I’m late to ask this. However I know there hasn't been much of either beginning or ending, even less of the in between. So why don’t we fix that. How about with dinner? So what do you say? Take your time I’m only going to ask this one once ( only once because that’s how many times I can ask with what little time there is left).

What do you say to an uncharted feeling we've felt for too long, can’t you see the familiarity we share as it crosses from seas apart even if it’ just to learn how to say goodbye and say what I want to tell you...