Monotonous Yearn

You stare at me so earnestly.

Pretend like you don’t see me sitting alone.

I stare out a window searching, for you.

How am I in disbelief when you got me crawling and begging on my knees.

Baby you have to stop f*****g with my mind.

Starting my day by staring at a screen scrolling down our writing to see if you messaged me from two nights ago.  

I’m so hot and tense when you’re next to me, you make me so damn uncomfortable but damn I miss it.

I swear this depression is going to be the end of me.

You can see I have steam to blow that’s why I can’t stop from writing this flow.

Caught me grinding my teeth, conspicuous but I try to feign; in the end it’s nothing special but can’t you read what you’ve done to me.

Hikari is what you said to me. 

I couldn't forget but you couldn't remember what I gave in return. 

Yeah I've got problems but I can’t stop myself from wanting you.

The first girl I’ve seen with a guile smile.

Thinking about you is like the itch at the rough of my mouth I can’t stop thumbing

The tip of my tongue hiding beneath my teeth aspirating, beginning the person I will some day regret.

Moving three steps down to tap the top of my palate. Hi-ka-ri

Unable to halt before heading to the yearning awaiting in the end 

Spoiled embracement and atmosphere lost to time and its changing tide

All too nostalgic for me to stain the images of memories from a better yesterday

Distant to this all too predictable outcome I keep my mind on repeat

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