Acknowledge

You look at me through your intellectual insecurities then you make me feel dumb for ever thinking I could hold a wand over you as if I could pull your heart strings like a puppet  

Staring at you with a blind man’s intent you are truly beautiful and such a geek it embarrasses me I never thought this of you when we first met. 

Now look it, see you infatuate my heart, make me stay up at night and wonder... 

Every time I get you back into my arms, you make my days shine through, if you come by,  look at me and never have to say goodbye, you’ll make my dreams come true.

Cool as the girl I imagined, that could never exist; unless she was with another man.

I am too quiet with my thoughts. If I could just say half of what I have to say, you would think I am crazy. Regrets, too many for me to compensate. So I’ll just grab you by the hand and take you out into the night filled with these city lights and give you something to talk about. 

Something that’ll make us feel like we never made mistakes, We don’t have any, We don’t know of any, 

You taught me so much, but there is too little time to tell you many thanks, so just let me show you how much, how zany you made me.

Turned my upside down world to show me, what’s up in this four legged earth, close minded and legit world right side-up

At the least that is what I would like too or at most... wish; they say, they say, let’s look at you, I say, why do you look at me and think of you?

Just make my heart drop from such happiness,

How can I sit so uncomfortable and be so happy? 

Breathe out so I can breathe you in, because baby, baby, you’re on my mind and in my thoughts.

I look at you looking at me, getting lost into each other’s eyes. 

You look in my direction, move my way, but walk right past me, oh no, I walk into the room, forget about the other times you've seen me. So why don’t you stare at me like the other girls do?

All the other girls look at me while I stare at you. Let’s just stop and think, Love is the saddest thing when it goes... so why can’t I keep you as the one moment I keep on replay in my mind, maybe, because, just maybe that’s how it’s suppose to be. 

You stare at me and I look foolish in heart: too young, too naive, to realize what I've been thinking of. 

Wanting and waiting for you, was my existence then.

Now when you stare, I feign to not acknowledge your gaze, into my soul, but actually I am too afraid to look back at what I've finally wanted.  Maybe scared of looking forward knowing I might someday lose what I've been searching for

To wish I was never born so you could not cause me the pain I so endure not knowing what lies ahead

I stare at all these strange faces and yet you stand out.

I get up and I lose my mind, I've got to man up and come to you... 

I liked her so I kept on looking at the continuous actions of my past. And then, 

When I had realized everything I had worked for, amounted to nothing

I wanted to breathe smoke. 

Don't stare at me with those deceptive eyes. The color of devotion.

Just put a pistol to my head and paint the walls with my brain. When the lights go out.

Author's Note

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[FateDictates]

Wow..
It's taking a moment to settle down strong words and beautiful flow masquerading as almost a lament for a repentant man who misses his muse........
"Breathe out so I can breathe you in", this is one of those deceptively simple sentences that is going to haunt me for not simply thinking of it, loved how you shook the tone at the end.....
I could be a new fan!!!!!