World ChangerA Poem by Julia Ledo
I wanna do something amazing
I wanna be world changing Ive got this energy in my hands and its blazing Waiting to be set free but its caged in But I’ve got the key It belongs to me But I wont turn the lock Can’t let the other foot drop Im too scared, too young, too dumb And the world's spinning madly on I dont have enough time Time time time it ticks by so fast The days are long but years dont last And I can sit here and whine Or I can write some rhymes But what the f**k does that mean Is that gonna make me queen Even then would I want the crown Making my subjects all bow down To the one, the girl who came up from the ground Letting my little seed sprout to feel the sun Let others fawn as they look on But I’ll never bloom no, not even germinate Because what if the world sees something it hates No it’s nice in the dark where no one can see Because at least for a while they can feel like me Squinting in the light Got lenses to see right And they make my face look big So I just want to dig dig dig Down deep in the dirt To avoid all the pain and all the hurt So I’m sitting silent Thinking violent Wondering where my mind went Why I feel like I’m numb or why I feel like im dying At the dinner table cant tell why Im crying Over spilt milk And a brother that God built Like he’s standing on stilts He’s up there, we’re all lower But one gust of wind will blow him over And there was this gust once but we pretend we don't know her F**k her I guess We’re still cleaning up the mess That she left like she belonged on cable Broadcast with some reality tv label And we’re back at the dinner table Im barely holding on a little unstable And no ones got a clue We sit there every night and no one knew Because they were dealing with my brother’s issues That sometimes I wanna die Even though those time are few I still wanna put out the light Every once in a while But Ill wake up with a smile Arrive in style Hoping against hoping that ill end up doing something worthwhile Doing something great or something wild just do something good Instead of wasting away in my adulthood But im trying. Im trying to keep up my reading, my writing My art making, language class taking, Networking kiss a*s smile faking Just trying to make it My mom and dad are the best you can get But I still fret I wanna - I gotta Be the best you’ll never forget Be the one you’ll always regret I wanna do something crazy amazing Fantastical and world changing These hands they’ll keep on blazing But I’ll just keep on waiting Because anxiety is a duality you see Always pushing you to be more than you can be But hellbent on letting you know you’ll never have the victory Maybe one day the winner will be me. © 2018 Julia Ledo |
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Added on January 16, 2018 Last Updated on January 16, 2018 AuthorJulia LedoMAAboutI write sappy things, sentimental things, mushy love things, and sometimes I write good stuff. Eat your heart out tough guy more..Writing
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