The Darkest Dream

It was 6:00 a.m. my cat, Spot, woke me up just at the right time. I went down stairs to go read the newspaper. The front was titled “Another Death” I read more and apparently four people have died of suicide 5 minutes after reading a book?! I’d read it but I’m too scared to die anyways I don’t believe those things. I put those things off to the side and had some waffles for breakfast. It’s a Wednesday that means school. Ugh. I hate school, everyone there is the reason I’m suicidal. Well I go get dressed and brush my teeth. It’s 6:54 wow time goes by fast, I run out to go to the bus stop. The kids just stared at me, maybe it’s because yesterday I got arrested for taking drugs. But I only took the drugs because I thought they would make my problems go away. Could the word spread that fast? Then the girls started whispering while staring at me, and I said “It isn’t polite to stare ladies.” They just looked each other and started laughing saying “Wow you got arrested for drugs? I take drugs like every week and don’t get caught!” “You’re a loser!” the other one said. I gulped, I wanted to punch her in the f*****g face. So much.

Hi, my name is Mike Cooper, I am 16 and suicidal but too scared to kill myself. I’m a p***y. I have a family that hates me and one friend that is really mean to me but it’s the best I got. I had a girlfriend in 8th grade but she hates me now because of my reputation. Lets talk about my reputation, it’s horrible. Everyone hates me for no reason and they make fun of my depression and cuts. It all started when I was in 8th grade I just wanted love, I got some but she betrayed me and never truly loved me the whole time and I cried for the rest of my life. What did my parents do? Nothing. That’s me for you now back to horrible life.

After school I came home and turned on my cd player and put in “My Chemical Romance: The Black Parade” I lied face down on my bed and cried, everyone at school made fun of me. Why am I crying? I should be used to it. I start to think of the book that makes you commit suicide. I wanted to know more so I open my laptop go to Google.com and search “Book that makes you commit suicide”. The same article I read this morning popped up and a ton of other ones did from a long time ago. So maybe this book has been around longer than I thought? The book is called “Suicide”

The next day I decide to go to the library after school. I try to find the “S” section. Found it! Now looking for “Su”. Now “Sui” Found the book! “Suicide” is the title. I am going to read it because I want to die. I go home and start reading the book.

After 4 hours I finish the book I don’t want to commit suicide, but it left me scarred for life. I am never talking about that book. Ever. I go to school the next day and I’m wearing a short-sleeved shirt were my scars are very noticeable. I’m walking down the hallway and someone says “Look at Mike’s scars, Ha!” “Why do you cut? Because you’re a p***y?” “Loser!” my crush then said “Why would you cut it’s so stupid just like you!” I ran out of school, lied on the grass and cried. Cried my f*****g eyes out. I went to office max to go get a rope. I went home and tied the rope to the ceiling put a stool right under it and made a loop and put my head in it. Then I started losing air… Screaming “HELP! HELP” then my parents came up and saw and untied it and said “What the hell were you thinking?!” “I tried to kill myself what the f**k did you think?” Later that day the word went around so fast. My crush came up to me and said “Suicide is not the answer if you need to talk you can talk to me.” and we did we talked and talked and later she became my friend a loving friend. I finally found my happiness.