This must be it. This is it.

Another one.

I have no idea why this happens to me, and why it happens more often than not.

In case you’re wondering, my damp wet heart is forcing me to pour out its feelings on this bright screen. Wanting to share with all of you. Emotions that must be too difficult to carry, even for a heart.

I’ve just been left or dumped for lack of a better word, and by a man whom i should have dumped first. Either way that is beside the point because to be honest, in relationships and in break ups it shouldn’t matter who left who. It’s simple; the relationship is still going to be over. 

I’m mainly writing this to find the problem and solve it because this whole heart break thing is mind boggling. Needless to say this relationship had its own set of issues that did vary from my other ones. That being said, now all I I want to do is focus on me and me and me and me and me and i don’t care how selfish that is. After the ending of that relationship i figured out what i had been too blind to see before. I need me more than anyone could need me right now. In order for me to find true love or pure honest affection that does not judge or hurt or lie to i must find myself first. This is the only way that i can give that same love to someone else. Going into it I’m positive and today on the third day of his breakup I’m not sad, depressed, or lonely.

Instead I’m thinking about all these great things i want for the future, I’m around the greatest people, and have love for me a love that i remind myself of everyday to overcome the obstacles everyday life throws at me.

Lastly, in regards to him i am not resentful or mad at him by any means I’m just thankful for the agonizing relationship he saved me from and I’m sorry that he met me when i didn’t love me the way i needed to.

Farewell, to my last sorry relationship.