The Party After the Party

Chapter 1: Whatever you do, do it good.

To start anew, to commence something, to choose a fresh start, all of these metaphorically speaking seem to clutter the minds and the mouths of those hopeful souls who look forward and aspire to the new start of 2013. After the champagne bottles have been throw out, after the decorating balloons have deflated, and as the daily wind slowly makes the left over confetti on the floors disappear I sit now, Saturday January 05, 2013 in my office desk. Wondering or wallowing. You wouldn’t believe the amount of things that are flowing through my mind. Somehow though this is okay I’m sure, because I feel okay.

On the other hand I lack that unrealistic optimism that almost everyone seems to have. Unlike them I try to visualize what can change for me this New Year. Realistically I try to make resolutions for myself while keeping in mind my extreme inconsistence, my sometimes procrastinating attitude, or my crazy enthusiasm that only last me a few days’ maybe even weeks at times. If I’m lucky. I don’t want to seem like a buzz killer or whatever else you want to call it but I want to remain honest. There you have it the New Year’s resolution numero uno. Honestly. I admit honestly I had not been honest the majority of 2012. Sadly, I became a better liar and that disappointed me. I’m taking a wild guess that somewhere between the long clubbing nights that led to early mornings in this city or the excessive drinking habits I gained and even the more fake people I would share laughs with I thought that lying through my perfectly lined teeth (thanks mom) was ok. It wasn’t if you’re wondering now. It isn’t by any means okay. Let me spare you the overbearing boredom of my mini self-loathing session I almost began and simply leave this first chapter of who knows what this will be and say:

“Thank you first and foremost for not coming to complete stop dear world as the Mayans falsely predicted your cruel ending. Instead let this year bring out the best in us and not drag along the mistakes and or sorrows of the last year. I won’t LIE and say everything will be pretty in pink or perfectly aligned for us but I will say that we are all capable despite our faults of changing, progressing, transforming, to end up transmogrified beings for the better if we chose that. Change is part of life and it’s normal even if we don’t think we are sometimes. My advice is, don’t waste time on that or those who don’t serve a meaningful purpose in our lives. Rid ourselves of all that brings us sadness or keeps us away from a better us or a brighter tomorrow. Find love. Any love not just the love we have for a significant other. Find the love for air for strange foods for animals for our family members who we can’t stand at times. Just do it because like the great John Lennon says: "Love is the only thing that can save us." Just try your best to be your best and take everything in steps until you make it to where you want to go."

 

 

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Author's Note

As the first chapter of my ammature writing skills, bare with me. It will get better i promise. It has to get better.