Love's Chance

I wrote this as a reminder to be patient because I am so excited and so anxious for "him" that I'm afraid I'll go back to trying to do things myself. I need to just wait.

My desires are strong and my emotions are deep. I’ve been hurt before and I have loved before. I want to love again and this time I will love the right way. I’m done with broken hearts, cracks, and bruises. I’m sick of crying at night and wasting my tears on boys who aren’t worth it to begin with. I’m done searching on my own. I’m done choosing who I think is best. In the end it always turns out to be a tragic story of romance. I don’t want to write any more of those types of stories. I hate having to hear my love life being played out on the radio every time it’s turned on. I hate thinking about what will be when there hasn’t been and what won’t be because of my mistakes. I’m only going to try this one more time. If God doesn’t deliver me the man he wants me to marry then there will simply be nothing left to dream about. It will all be in God’s timing. I already know that in my heart God was thinking of me when he made my partner. I’m just waiting on God to gift me with him. I’m tired of choosing the wrong guys and falling for someone who was never worth my time. God knows what I want, every little quality, he has made him especially for me. I’m only me in this really big world, it’s impossible for me to find my soul mate on my own so I figure that I might as well let someone handle it who is big enough to have even made the world I live in, to find him for me. I know he’s out there. I can only imagine what he’ll be like, but I am even more excited to find out. I pray with all my heart that the good Lord will bring him to me soon, but if that’s not his will and not his timing I know that whatever is will be even better even if I can’t understand why and even if I want something totally different. I am looking forward to the day when I get to experience love how it was meant to be.

© By Amanda Gloth