My loneliness is killing me

My loneliness is killing me

My daydreaming and thoughts about you, all day all night

Losing my logic, like thorns to adore, flaws to praise and king’s bow to knight.

If you could see me years ago, when your face is just a face-

Believed my mind a pigeon has a letter to address.

I tried a thousand ways to forget you, remembered the things you done

Alas! I only get struck by cruel summer and heartless winter.

Think, you don’t know anything about the heart beating

The verse I’ve written, imposed the smile  and the crying on cemented.

Sometimes,I try to false imagine that you already started a new phase,

I console somehow, but those glances put me back again in eclipse.

People can’t see the bleeding of heart, when it's still beating-

But death happens long ago, loving someone not expressing.

Satisfy  the wandering soul, bless my ears with your words again

Don’t have to be polite, rudeness will erase my darkness with a thousand luciferin. 

Can you please stop my life becoming cimmerian and full of lacuna,

Just one smile just one will stop this anhedonia!

Bless me with your existence, I don’t expect that much

But promise me,enlighten my grave with your green touch. 

Not lying! My loneliness is killing me-

God knows I tried but waiting here everyday for death to welcome.