My human mind

This is what's been on my mind, lately. Slowly inhale and exhale. Trust the universe will unfold things. Please tell me any ideas you have for me!

My mind has been in a knot lately. There are some things always on the back of my mind, slowly making it's way to the surface. I'm about to graduate university next year and need to know what I want to do with my career. I'm majoring in Psychology with a focus in creative writing and my advisor told me I need to know what to do later on. That part scares me. I always thought I would feel at ease when it comes to this part. You see, ever since 3 years ago, I had an idea that I couldn't really part with. That idea was to combine all the things I love: Psychology, writing, dancing, traveling, and culinary arts. But the big question is: how? How do I making a living that combines all those things? Maybe my idea is too "out there" and not heard of. Now that more time has passed, I thought about traveling (some yoga) and dancing on the side. I did some research that combines all those things and the one thing that frequently comes up is dance therapy. 

I would like to dance in a small company, write poetry and stories while doing some sort of Psychology and traveling the world. I want to do something that makes me happy. Figuring out what to do with my major for my career scares the living crap out of me. I know for a fact that I don't want to be stuck to a desk or having a 9-5 office job. I don't want to feel like a robot. Life is short. I feel like a gypsy, wanting to travel anywhere and everywhere and gain the experiences from it. I feel like I need a change, or a series of changes, ever since April but I don't know what to change. I moved out of my apartment within walking distance to my University to a shared house with 2 other roommates, so that has been a slight adjustment. I need something else to change internally. The only things I can think of changing is getting a haircut, change my diet (I've been eating more vegetables and less fruit), going to the gym, being more mindful (aware of everything) and meditating. I'm also practicing on mindfulness, to be consciously aware of everything I'm doing and doing it at a slower pace. It takes 21 days to make or break a habit. 24 days from today classes will begin for the Fall term. 

I thought about the cochlear implant, I'm very much leaning towards it. That's also a huge decision that's been weighing on my mind almost everyday. IF I choose to get it, I don't know when it will be. December seems like a good time to do it, but I might need more than a month to recover from the surgery and my hearing will completely change. I also don't want to feel pressured and jump right back into classes in January. But if I do it after I graduate in May, that will be more time. I also just want to get the hell out of this place after I graduate. 

It's crazy to think when we were younger, how badly we wanted to grow up and be on our own. Now that we're older, we want to go back to childhood without all the responsibilities and worries in the world. Sometimes time goes by slow, but flies so fast when you look back. 

Shoot any ideas my way if you think of something, any suggestions would be greatly appreciated how I can combine the things into a career! 

- Sending you love and light, 

                         J