Aisle Twelve

Aisle Twelve

A Poem by JR

I thought about immolating myself on aisle twelve 
pictured what it would be like to cruise through the stretched gape maw of the entrance 
captured by cameras with that 5 gallon can without the safety s**t  
the one my mom got in Nevada, the big white one 
which would gurgle, four and half gallons of gas bought across the street at Safeway 
what would the greeter do? The checker-of-receipts? The eye-baller of short skirts? 
sit on his stool, or...; 

let's imagine I get through with my can, my gas, a cheap Bic lighter 
into the crowds that gather slack jaw or stubborn 
old bald sunspot man with a hole in his left sock, his wife standing as stone to view  
deals on Coca-Cola while his lips only wander and his arms hang like wood 
his eyes water, crowds piles as logs in a river  
and we wait... 
and that’s only aisle two; 
 
then little Linda who can’t flip you off right-handed 
hunkered behind her white little packages and time safe warnings 
blue eyes behind her glasses go wide as she watches me slide by the end of aisle 
jaw set, can gripped, eyes forward but there she is, there at the corner 
agape 
which is really what I’m shooting for anyway 
keeping watching me sweet Linda... 
a single Mylar balloon, escaped, glinting among the rafters half deflated 
teenager with tattooed tits pushing her kid with a steady beat of “no” 
passing the pastries weight of the can makes me shift to my left hand 
fat white guy big dude probably works construction nice beard considering beer 
dodge the hipster loafers looking at towels at the end of aisle 7;  

the gray blue hair lady who refuses to look in place with her costume jewelry  
Chanel number five and church nimble fingers who finally sees me and says 

“hey” 
“hey young man”  

but I’m not  
I’m a former young man slipping into the obsolete  
once a beast run free now being closed in a basket 
with white-painted slats and big box credit 
I ignore her and she lets it go, turning to get her discount tea and sacks of sugar 
Mylar balloon follows on the pattern of those big blowers 
boxy things jutting with their segmented faces towards the mill below 
and the white paint blown over everything quickly, the shadows of the beams exposed 
naked and bare like birth careless arches holding the structure  
no one bothers to cover them, to close the roof from the rest, factory from the floor 
deals and deals and meals and coffee and kids and screaming and mumbles 
and socks with holes and thin metal faces and endless wobble of tattoos 
and wafts of cannabis and arguing and coaxing and cajoling and the crux
and tits and tights and muscles and skin and bleat bleat and bloat 
and endless flow
like a creek that feeds the river  
which only ever feeds the sea; 

and its aisle twelve and I think of brave Thich Quang Duc  
who made an awesome album cover 
and the hum of fluorescent 
those rows of bars overhead 
relentless sighing matrons 
with their REEEEEEEEEEEE 
gas flows like a creek which flows to a river which flows to the sea 
only this time 
instead of an owner 
that ocean is me; 

little Linda 
beautiful Linda 
who lives  
beneath the hum 
who deals drugs  
beneath the hum 
who struggles with her mortgage 
and PG&E 
and a cat with an abscess 
who commiserates with her customers   
beneath the hum
all those dim eyes searching in the dark 
despite the hum 
waiting for a spark my spark;

little Linda  
with your bell weather smile 
and the crease of your neck  
which cradles your gold cross 
sweet Linda 
immaculate un-immolated Linda 

what do you make of your universe now?

© 2024 JR


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JR
JR

Placerville, CA



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