Out By The Garbage ChuteA Poem by JRI still remember that little place out by the garbage chute, on the thirteenth floor overlooking the city. I was almost always alone out there, except occasionally interrupted by people chucking their trash. I would sit out there for hours, smoking cigarettes, writing poems, sometimes just looking out over the lights. I drank a lot of beer in those days. They knew me down at the corner convenience store, my brands. My daughter had stayed a few days with me, and she left behind a purple baseball cap. I would take it with me, hold it up to my nose and smell the scent of her: baby shampoo, her lavender lotion, her skin. I’d turn it in my hands, think of her, how I could still be there for her even when I wasn’t. Smoke my cigarette, toss it over the railing watch it twist into all that darkness tumble, explode, disappear. You know, every light in the city is a subtlety different shade, from that height. The greens, the dull whites, the oranges, red, yellows. The startle bright of white LEDs which were much more rare in those days. Turned her cap in my hands and thought it was like I was actually up on that railing perched, my arms outstretched. This was really a balancing act, with the door, the hallway, her, and my apartment on one side and the dark ash of the cigarette’s fall the endless blink of a million lights on the other. Turned it in my hands. And smelled the scent of baby shampoo. © 2020 JR |
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Added on February 16, 2020 Last Updated on February 16, 2020 AuthorJRPlacerville, CAAboutWriting again Interesting times to be living in, kind of a cool time to be a writer and documenting the world. more..Writing
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