Instead of feeling the merry

I heard the sad melody in the last goodbye
He said he would come back the next day
but then he said never mind he can barely keep awake
can barely keep awake to hold me tight in a loving embrace
but barely awake to cause so much heartache
and still my heart misses you
wishes to lie with you
I heard the sad melody and cried my blues
I want to be away from here
I hate it here
where everyone suffers
the children shooting one another
what have we become
I have sinned too
Did what I thought I must do for love
but like you I was a fool
for some California boy
only to be their toy
but God tells me with His voice
I am His choice forever
when the managers get ready to fire me
My Lord I feel your arms come around desiring me
maybe i am lost in this dream
with a sad melody
in the last goodbye
to who i thought was the love of my life
but how can it be
when he never chose me
still living with she
just like that other guy living together
well yes I am tired of that old routine the men of today are committing forever
when will the men treat the women
like Joseph stood by Mary
Such a heavy burden to carry
and yet here we are instead of feeling the merry