The bleakest and eternal season of fall

 I finally blocked you

Everything He tried to tell me finally got through

on POF there are two new cute potential boos

Even if not I am reminded I am a butterfly and a Capricorn

i must stand in my truth

This is some nasty porn

I burn it up

should have treasured my love

what do you expect out of a drug

he is the lonelier one after all

He is the bleakest yet eternal season of fall

living in a new house with the supposed crazy spouse

going back and forth from me and probably other ladies

and he still after all these years isn't loving anybody

Go sit in the House of God, my love

heal thyself

until then i block you from my healing health

i will put on my hello kitty wireless headphones

that I got from 5 below

and forget you were someone I was trying to know

find baptism and renewal birth in this storm of rain and snow

I give all the sadness that I have come to know to God above

He promised he would come see me today and tomorrow

after my love he borrowed he text me at the end says he is too sleepy can't stay awake

how much energy do you need to be with the one you love

to be with someone to f**k

Iam returning all this heartache

thanks for waking up the muse

I see I dont love you

i no longer need you

I am butterfly eternal

A Cold hearted Capricorn through with you

Standing in a very love filled truth

but he will miss me till his dying day

wondering why he never treasured love that so easily came in a better way

go walk in the rain my love

Go sit in the House of God

Only the divine can heal this broken boy who has for a long while claimed my stupid thoughts

but no more

i once again close the door

i shut the lock and when he realize he is blocked

I wont respond

but he will be fine because he was never loving anyone

must be a life of fun

but for me its trash porn

i am eternal butterfly and Capricorn

cold hearted and reborn

there is no regret because I was brave enough to love when they told me not to

i finally see what HE was trying to tell me

The lesson is finally learned I loved but love was not returned

its better than not loving at all

but being with him is like staying in the bleakest and eternal season of fall

where nothing is living or loved at all