Income of Zero

My pom Koa and I eat plantain chips
my sister says my clothes are childish
I like hello kitty
I like disney
i am one of those dreamers who long to be a poet but end up broke

I dont grow old

yet i can still be mature
still map out a wonderful future
if my mama and edd keeps sending the money
everything will be fine honey
so go ahead and shun me
life and love on earth sure is funny
it all no longer bugs me
retired from the toxic hamster wheel of the real
still not enough compensation in the deal
i think if someone worked at least 10 years
that’s enough to start resting dears
why do we work so many days and nights
when the time goes by
when we reach the after life
when the bombs shower us from the sky
when the car run over you and I
will the money we earned be enough to buy a rescued life
a family died at the bus stop
a city at a concert ends with another bomb
terrorists respond with pride and glee
did all the tipping save you and me
could Putin even save his country
some say its what is deserved
the whole earth hurts with an everlasting curse
its part of the inheritance of humanity
I just want  peace
so that toxic life let me go
God saw I was stressing so much i couldn’t breathe
So now I walk around with an income of zero
in my brain and my heart only Jesus is the hero
the compass doesn’t navigate me above or below
I am out of ideas
that old life sucked and everything felt like diarrhea
I surrender to the fact I no longer want a career
I don’t want to keep being a slave in this God given atmosphere
Why on earth do we create so much hurt
even the money can’t buy us out of this everlasting curse
so God made them let me go

before it got any worse

for a moment I was truly a depressed soul

Yet God is the true hero

even with an income of zero

He doesnt set a price for me to pay 

For free He reminds I am worth it today

He is gonna let me stay childish
I am single because I am wildish
i can’t be tamed
by idiots so lame
I can’t be the assistant to the weak and the afraid
I did what you ask
when mistakes were in the task
i just made the cracks appear in your mask
Somehow i tried to make my position last
But that toxic life left me in the past
I have been let go
that old toxic life without hope
on the hamster wheel like a damn ghost
is this what we raise our children to be
its aghast so many ladies aborting their babies

when life in the USA is the opposite of free

look at all those hungry people on the streets
the dead bodies from murder suicide  on the news sheets
the unfairness to medical workers because of greed
 humanity is one same mistake after another
we should be let go
only one truly reminds to love one another
even with an income of zero
Jesus is the hero

HE will be saving my soul

my friends and sisters say I am so dark

I need to cry out all the broken pieces of my heart

i couldnt release one drop

instead I ran to Livermore outlets to shop
hold on to my youth with these last dollars from EDD that I got
close as I can be to my married lover who isn’t serious about me
yet texts his selfie and I miss you always craving you
but craving is not loving
braveness is still going on shoveling
even if its crumbs of love  keep me struggling
all i have are dreams and memories of us cuddling
why is it so hard for some singles to find true loving
in the confusion everything is clear
breathing on earth should be freer
yet here we are still fighting this  war
peace sparkles and gleams from  the other shore
 in the east, west, south  and  in the north
but some continuously go back and forth
on the hamster wheel
in this toxic real
what do you feel
when the people died at the concert hall
when the family died at a bus stop
final destination isn’t our call
so just love
be childish

make a wild wish

He reminds me in this Holy Week

We can still be free

To feel Holy Peace

Some tears must be shed

Some must bleed

more and more let this toxic life let us go

so HE can save my soul

let Jesus be your hero

He will still give His best on an income of zero