These Same Tears

He is the season that made my heartache

The reason I chose this mistake

The string that holds the bead of confusion in every move I make

Yet I dont regret a thing

He is the bee that can only sting

Me in to oblivion

I mistook him for a unicorn

Maybe he was made that way

I chose to text him today

I was sad I couldnt see his face

Though his presence is the toxic in my space

What will it get me now to continue having sex with a man too confused

Stuck in  a place with her

Why bother

Its been 5 years

We have been crying these same tears

I crave him still more than any other

Its unbelievable to me who is very smart

I would still choose to keep the memory of him in my heart

Yet to not is like keeping myself stuck in the dark

 I dont understand i just keep thinking of our secret kiss in the park

i wish to be where you are

Yet like the sun is kept apart from the moon

Only in those rare celestial moments can they unite

Find me next time in the next life

Hope our separation is just a phase

Someday I hope I find myself in true love's embrace