The Better Me

Hopefully I will also meet a better guy that wont waste 5 years of my life!! like a moth to a flame...thats the way love goes...

Today I finally I meet the better version of me

Those 5 years I can't explain

Our crazy connection was in the stars

I guess I had to experience a world so dark

To really be grateful for the presence of a new start

I am fine to be alone

I dont care now what they say

I did my best but all anyone gave me were lies any ways

from the fairy tales, to the politicians to the men that passed me all these days

Friends have come and gone

Lovers passed through me like fog

Only my dogs and mama kept me sane throughout all the drama

I shut the door

Oh there will be no more

The world I had to walk through helped me see the truth

helped me see more of what i don't want and what i do

I just look for a love that is true

Love me and I will love you

But it can never come from a man who chooses to be eternally confused

I forgive you for humans dont know what we do

If God asked me why the reason was because I thought i loved you

I guess it was just the dream that kept me holding on to you

It hurts to let go, it hurts to lose

But i must walk in truth

what we had was so bad it was a lie a fantasy

The good girl in love with the bad guy that never even exists

why did you come to me offer me a ride

why did you come and invade my life

to just leave me without a goodbye

if you must leave then leave

i was better off without you

Why help me with my dog and a belated birthday

why why why all these games

it hurts but I pray to JC and Mother Mary they will just take it  all away

there is a vaccine for COVID

What is the medicine for a broken heart

you are the true mechanic you had to get to know me by taking me apart

Through all this dark I finally dont need or miss the embrace of his arms

I see everything was a lie

I burn everything of us tonight

We will be no more

I lock the door to a confusing chapter of my story

In the morning I will meet the better me