missing him more than i should

i hate what i wrote so i dont care about grammar, etc...

I miss him more then I should

Its not smart no good

He sits in the car by my side

I didnt know in five years time

I would fall in love with the crazy guy

Sadly though it just feels like we are destined for goodbye

Our roads ran over but is our destiny tied

It always feels like a no

Yet inside is this endless hope

Foolish I know

He came to give me a ride home

He asked me where I have been he tried to call last night but couldnt get me on the phone

I said I was watching jeopardy and wheel of fortune i didnt hear the phone ring

it was the sad truth but I dont see the point in lying

he asked are you sure you weren't on a date

What does it matter I ask him if we dont share the same fate

is there trust

he doesnt want a baby

keeps asking if i am pregnant

i dont know this is crazy

still i can't seem to let you go

oh please Lord save me take me home

He says I unlocked the cage ages ago

Yet you dont seem to follow

I cant be blamed for my heart is not hollow

it is not hardened

it dreams of my love and me in a cleaner tomorrow

We talk of pointless things so funny

Politicians and Iced vietnamese coffee

He was drinking his since one

He offered me a taste here drink this hon

I told him thats my crack

He asked to hold my hand

I said I can't he is a married man

He says he feels like he is used

The way I do

I tell him we are friends with benefits

He laughs

says we are more than that

He is a crazy crazy man

I am in love

i dont understand

I feel doomed

the unlucky one

yet its pointless to make him go

cause even in those rare moments I share with him alone

I already miss him so

I know its no good

missing him more than I should