The Light God Placed in You

Another long one....its good but not good...working on the craft...

So many lovers

so many guys

how do we know who is the one

So many signs yet not a great outcome

there will be better days

I believe

Something takes me through my memory

I feel each one I kissed before

I still feel their touch

The gentle caress in the shower

Sweet intimate hour

When our bodies pressed in the van

I made love to him because i can

I still feel the kiss we had in front of the fire

Moments of PDA really do inspire

I feel the movement of his hands

As we sit on the tour bus in Monterey

He made sure there was a hot tub to have a great vacay

While we soaked his thing shrank away

We made love in the hotel bed

He pulled out and in from behind

He would say oh you are so sexy so fine

We walked the 17 mile drive whispered I love you

Boating and watching for a whale was my favorite day he would cuddle me and it was like a fairy tale

I want to his place after work so we could make love under the sf fog so gray

we laid in the grass and kissed away

like young fools do on a summer day

we had margaritas by the bay

I took a photo of the glasses

filled with red blended liquids

someone instantly messaged

What are you doing with my husband??

by that time he had taken most of my soul

many through scandalous photos

My nakedness he said was beautiful for him to adore

He abused and stole in photos still possessed and stored

I thought he could be trusted

I thought he was the better one but he was just a robot rusted

showing me a divorce paper from the marriage before

he tried to call me but i didn't want to hear any more

he tried to insult me by calling me a an ugly body

the wife showed me all the ugly photos he took

showing me i am just a fat pig for a joke and a look

I just pressed delete and ignore

That's why my face will never be seen in places that can be mean

only my words on a screen

i loved that last guy too

even though he played me like a fool

breaking all the rules

The love they gave was a just a disguise for cruel

I know there will be better days

God saved me with HIS grace

For the carelessness hurt flung on the innocent

He will repay

Sometimes you have to go through all the frogs

to get to that heavenly place

i will make it to the other side

God's love is the treasure

I may have an ugly body but my heart is pure

no hate in mine

Which is the reason why so many people hurt each other all the time

never making us black and blue

but healing all those that bruise

with His eternal loving truth

No matter what these fools try to do

They can never blow out the light God placed in you

This is the eternal flame

A life with Him is the only way

If you want a miracle look in the mirror

You might see the reflection of God's grace

We can make it to the other side

Through His grace in His time

We can reach that heavenly place

Love your enemies

Love them no matter what they do

No one can blow out the light God placed in you.