Out Here On My Own

He pulled my  lonely soul down his rabbit hole

Through his complicated maze

Like Alice in Wonderland I was ready to go away

In an adventure with wanderlust it lead in to his arms making love in his car

For his heart was occupied not fully mine

I wanted him to be strong for me

I wanted him to belong to me

To need me like I need you

Now I see he has a heart of stone

Through my drying tears

I am out here on my own

The other side of the aftermath is when I close my eyes and were are here in the imaginary world we have loved to know

I feel his arms around me

I feel his lips on my skin

I miss him more than words can say

There is nothing I can do

I already blocked the way

He doesn't leave me voicemails like that yesterday

After all our times in five years one thing is left to know

I am out here on my own

I thought my heart had finally found a home

He didn't want to let me go

I realize its only lies when a man speaks with a heart of stone

As time grows I realize I have always been out here on my own

There is no one to trust

No one to love

I lost everything I want

2020 made me pay the price

Hopefully it satisfies for the consequence of the crime

God kept on shoving me awake

Letting me see that the happiness I felt was fake

I loved him anyway with all the lies and a heart so cold

Its hard to be out on your own all the time

When a heart just longs to go home

Sadly there is nothing I can do

I am not the one he choose

I am not the true apple in his basket

If he can't do the things I need him to

He said he would always be with me but he is a man who speaks with a heart of stone

As he smiles by his wife in the snow

I realize it should have been easy to know

I am out here all on my own.

Reviews

[Tepo]

I've read 3 of your writes butterfly
It appears you are as name suggests going through some life changes.
Broken relationship and either finding or renewing your faith.
As long as you are being read, and you are
You won't be out here on your own
Keep writing it out
Also enjoyed 41st year

[butterfly]

Thanks everyone! I appreciate all the reviews as I continue working on my craft. I usually draw from personal life. Sometimes personal life is sad but its the poetry that gets us through. Thanks again for reading it really means a lot :)

[LazerRays]

This was deep and saddening to read. I felt my heart go heavy knowing this was most likely based off true emotions. I hope you're doing all right. His heart was of stone, making him a jerkoff