Goddess

I want my love life to mirror the words on the page
I want my man to act the way when we embrace
I no longer crave you like I did before
I hunger for another
It makes me sad
I only want you lover
The buttons aren’t always controlled by my hand
I blocked you and still I feel the pang
The sting and teeth of the bang
I want more
You don’t have it
So I must now lock the door
Its time to end it
I don’t need adultery, or to covet
I see the reality of my sins
I hope this map leads to forgiveness
For myself for you
In the end I still love you
I don’t know what I can do
You aren’t mine
I now enjoy the solitude of flight
Yet this other guy
Is a mixture of dark and light
Another mere shadow
He dangles on my hook
I will soon throw him back in the ocean
In the midst of the tides of emotion
Emerge a goddess
A queen
I see we are never meant to be
Too wild and untamable
He is a guy unavailable
Of course this is the ending to this chapter of our story
I am tired of this dumb ride
Now I find freedom in the lock down
Everything thought I was crazy to leave something so stable
They just didn’t see the cracks underneath me
I will not be ignored or buried
I live to love so take my love but don’t ask me for anymore
I did my work for the poor
Now I return to the Lord
He with mercy will give me a divine cure
I am a magical being
A child of God
I was locked in this human form
Then I walked through him and found the clothes I wore before
Crumpled sheets of white
Glow in the shadowy light
As the man comes forth
Says, hello welcome home
Don’t you know
 returning from earthly missions
Through the long flight of forgiveness
Returned by the ocean
In the midst of the tides of emotion
Emerge a goddess.